Why I shouldn't scrolling facebook before / during doing the task

Ah abis ngeset wallpaper baru (wallpaper boleh baru tapi chara tetep gin san <3) cerahnya hatiku
melihatmu saja sudah bisa membuatku tersenyum #eaa

*to facebook*

banyak animated pics hari ini

*scroll*

...

Iya daa
iyaaa
yametee
kore wa zettai official janaii
zettai ni iyaaa

*click*

Yadda yoo
Mitomenai waa
iya daa
kore wa honmono hazu janaiii

//liat gambar (yang terlalu kayak official) pair2 yang aku takutin selama ini //karena ga ngeship
//shipku cuman KondoTae, yang lain nyimpang #jleb

Meanwhile, Okikagu ship telah berekspedisi besar2an halp mama I dun ship them so why

--few minutes later--
*still scrolling*

Gwd I wanna sleep QwwQ

A.. Saigen?? (Saitama Genos)
Everyone's really into this lately
mwehehe akhirnya saya tidak sendirian //emang siapa yang bilang ship ini minor sampe lu sendirian
Setidaknya lebih gak PHP lah daripada ship2 lain season ini huhuu

Genos is really like Kageyama. REALLY
ah wait the seiyuu's the same though lol

I'm so done haha

Ano sa.. sonna bichi wa iru kedo yo kekkou daikirai nanda shi ne...
Ore.. nani wo itteru ka sappari wakanain dakedo
maa ii kana

I just wanna pour all of my uneasy feelings here because I can't talk about this to anybody, too embarrassing, and disgusting at the same time. Oh well, once I've written this, guess I can be freer and watch anime delightfully. Ah, you know bloggie I just have a littleee amount of time just to worry about this shitty things. Let's get started now shall we

//Why do I suddenly write this in english??

Lately there's a dude which I want to punch him right on his face. He comes to my life, and I don't accept him btw up until now. But he comforts me and provides me things girls might need, like, caring, ride to somewhere with a car of course, dine, and of course the most important is, someone to be told to everyone that 'he's my boyfriend wannabe' or so like that

-I'll use present tense coz it's easier #slapped

But lately when I've come all the way forcing myself to see him ( I said force here because I really don't love him but I think I NEED him. Never have this feeling before but if you wanna know, it's feels like umm.. bitch who needs money no matter what that man'll do to her. Euh Gross. Something like that)
He just.. doesn't make an effort to come and talk to me like what he always do back then, strange indeed. He just sit and go around his damn cafe, scrolling his facebook WTH I'm ignored. I'm fcking badly ignored.

My mom said maybe he's just shy to open the conversation What the fuck? Okay, I'll try to be friendly with him but he doesn't respond to me like he before and he's so rude. He barely look at me while answering my questions. Son of shitty bitch, I'm trying so hard to distinguish this disgusting feeling and hold my hand not to punch you but this's what you give me? I'm so done

So after that I sit very far from him, talking to my beloved little brother. Come to think of it, this brother of mine is reaaaalyyy, faar mooore gentleman than him. He's just a trash. Shitty rubbish that really should just vanish, burnt at the core of the earth. Meh

But he approaches us at the end end we're discussing something about Annabelle but it's all nonsense.His not funny. Not at all. . He's pissing me off
I really wanna hit him so hard with this car I drove when I go home. He's so #$%^

The chatting thing's becoming worse and worse. I don't give a fuck and don't care about it at first, but my mom - moms are the best investigator they said, with awesome premonition and such - noticed that this moron dude doesn't even reply as he did when he first texted me, and she also said he hid his phone display from my mom back then, my mom suspects he has a new girlfriend wannabe that he's chasing around right now.

It hurt. He came and gone just by a month. After making my birthday unforgettable Shit.
I don't want to interact with boys like this =_= it sucks
Mom said I can go and find someone who's better than him and show off but I just can listen to her while caressing my A4 printed poster of Gin san beside me

I'm so done. Just by the time I get my hope up, everything's ruined. I'm so done. I'm seriously giving up on him. I hate the bitches who always make fun of me just because I'm single. I'm gonna beat their shitty ashes if they ever say something about it again it's freaking pissed me of af

Maybe it's my bad from the start too. Who needs boyfriend anyway? I just don't want to be hurt by anybody anymore. It's so sick and disgusting. Well I think that's all for today. A little more hardwork should shoo away this residual pain in my chest.. maybe
It's not a heartbreak. And I swear this's FAR MORE BETTER than receiving a bad score or losing things that mean a lot to me

Iri

Mine itu ga gampang iri
Dia makhlum kok kalo ada temennya yang lebih hebat dari dia atau nilainya lebih bagus, malah dia terpacu buat ngejar temennya
Dia nyantai (baca :pasrah) aja pas banyak yang berhasil dan update2 status di fb

Cuman kayaknya ada satu yang bikin dia iri setengah mampus

Liat pacar (amin) chat bilang 'aku abis bangun tidur'
Liat mama asyik update post kuliner
Liat papa genjreng2
Denger adik nyetel video2 gaje di sebelah

DIA IRI SETENGAH MATI SAUDARA
knp? Karena dia ga bisa ngelakuin apa yang dia suka saking semua waktunya disikat abis sama tugas. Sekian

Pojok tumpahan curhatan kembali dibuka

Hari - hari belakangan ini menyenangkan banget. Aku tapi ga ada waktu ngepost cerita lengkapnya gara2 akhir2 ini sibuknya setengah mati. Sumpah. Ini yang terparah. Bayangin aja seminggu ini pulangnya udah malem, masih harus ngerjain tugas pula.. nggak sanggup
Kemarin sampe harus absen matkul sebelum presentasi, muter2 dan kerja di kost Chifa sampe malem dan pulangnyatidur dulu baru besoknya ngerjain. Dan berlaku juga untuk hari ini dengan dosis kerjaan yang berasa unlimited. Oh gosh

Tapi di samping tugas tugas tugas everything is fine. Very fine. I'd rather choose this happiness-sadness ratio, yah maksudku biarlah kesenangan sama temen2 dan diriku sendiri ga ada masalah, meski aku harus ngerja tugas yang banyak sebagai gantinya.

Masalah facebook, aku cuma bisa ngecek TL doang.. aku ga bisa tugas di site fanservice haikyuu dulu .. padahal aku udah lama ga ngepost.. yah gimana mau ngepost aku nonton episode terbarunya aja belum. Terus... minggu depan episode OkiKagu katanya. Yah sebenernya ga masalah, soalnya toh mereka ga sampe romantis jijay kayak di scene2 ngefeels biasanya, but strangely, semakin shippernya panas, aku malah males ngikutin.. yah mungkin nanti an aja aku nonton episode yang itu, atau mungkin kuskip? Yah ga sampe segitunya sih, aku nikmatin Gin san sama humornya aja...

//Menunggu arc yang HijiGin keras

Oh ya btw mungkin aku naik kapal ke arah yang salah. Orang2 banyak yang ngeship GinHiji. Aku tau memang di kebanyakan scene (ya baru nyadar juga sih) Hiji lebih gampang diinsult dan Gin emang cool, strong, manly, tapi juga protective, calm -yah itu mah pendapatmu sendiri - makanya lebih cocok dijadiin seme

Aku mau nulis post khusus ini ah.. tapi kalo dari perasaan shippingku yang biasanya sih, aku kan based on anime (why? Because anime's adaptation of manga, thus it's reflecting the true story of the mangaka so I'll depend on that). Nah selama aku liat animenya, aku mulai consider HijiGin dari episode 20 (yang sama2 takut hantu yg ternyata amanto) sama episode 48 (ini sesuatu banget lah. banget). Aku loh langsung mikir Hiji seme Gin uke. Udah ... ya aku udah ga bisa betray my feelings, oke ini fix ahahah

ditambah kadang2 muka Gin san nguke banget wkwkw pfft

Tapi untuk ship ini aku nggak terlalu hard ship sih disamping aku nyadar Gin san kan ga mungkin dihomoin (dalam konteks beneran) -kecuali buat promosi merchandise sih ya pfft (yang nulis ketipu beli break time figure soul switch arc HijiGin satu set yang mahal hihihi biarin), aku lebih fokus ke Gin sannya.. jadi HijiGin cuman tambahan untuk menambah stimulasi adrenalin -halaah- maksudku efek doki2 fangirlingnya ahahah

//udah2 balik ngerja tugas sana, ntar gak mari2
//nyadar dan nangis

Nb. note to myself. Because this year's my most precious birthday moment ever (until this time), I should write a special post about my birthday~

Sometimes I just don't wanna give a single fck to all this sht and just boom shakalaka and browse for more sekaiichi hatsukoi AMV

Thanks anime for ruining and making my life beautiful

Berkat campuran rasa arogan dan percaya diri Light
dan karena ada Gin san hasbando sejati...

gw jadi ga bisa dideketin cowok #crais
Harga diri gw sekaligus standar cowok gw udah terlalu tinggiii
gara2.. Light sama Gin san huee now what I'm unapproachable

Tumpah ruah biji Foenigraeci Pelangi #tonjok

judulnya makin ngaco
Nih anak setelah nonton Gintama plus paduan mabok kuliah malah jadi gaje abis

Oke langsung aja lah.. ngomongin semua yang pingin diomongin setelah beberapa lama ga ngepost di blogger.

Bojoku makin ganteng. Ah ya jelas, Gin san gitu

Semua cowok itu PHP. Hahahah iya lah! PHP in aja mereka semua. Nggak ada yang pasti sebelum mereka nembak dan statusnya jadi in relationshit. Pasti kalo mereka ga berani nembak yaa.. yah cuman pengecut2 yang berani2 deketin gw.
Suka gw krn gw waifu material? Iya lhaa.. tapi situ hasbando material? Ah ga juga.. tapi domvetnya.. ehm #dilempar sandal

ELO CABE ATAU APA??! eeh ngomong apa gw barusaann

Gin san ntar lagi ulang tahun 10 Oktober. Yay! Bulannya samaan sama aku hahaha. Iya, bulannya aja. Bedanya dia angka cantik dan umurnya (sepertinya) ga nambah, sedang aku makin mendekati kepala 2 (NOOOO)

Inktober? Yeaa boro2 inktober men, ini ntar lagi UTS di depan mata, gak konsisten dong ntar gambarnya... tapi sebenernya aku mau ikutaan

Gorilla sensei keracunan pisang busuk. Oh men lo kok bisa?? Kirain dia sakt keras kayak tifus atau semacamnya (jelas saya nggak berharap)... ternyata......
Anyway GWS dan semoga dari pengalaman ini sensei ga makan sembarangan lagi. Bukannya supaya dia bisa tetep update bojoku tiap minggu tapi ya supaya dia sehat selalu aja. Amin wkwk //memang ultah

Meme "Kadang aku berpikir... kenapa aku mikir" gaje abis
Tapi krn udah editin dengan sepenuh tenaga, oke deh kuapresiasi

Meme "Besok malem minggu. Dan aku di rumah" //selipin gambar termehek2
Yea pls. Emang malming di rumah itu aib gitu ya? Trs gw hrs ke GM? Parkir di atapnya aja deh ya.. Lagian gw UTS //jutek mode kumat
sejak kapan ya punya jutek mode
... ya sejak gw bebas ngoceh di blog pribadi muhahaha *ketawa Kira*

Udah itu aja kayaknya.
Aku semakin akrab sama San dan Rizuki.
Sepertinya Shine kalo dibiarin bakal ngeganggu deh
Kin gimana kabarmu kenapa kita ga pernah ketemu GDI

Serasa make love potion dan dihinggapi tuyul selama bersamaan. Habis, kok belakangan ini rasanya makin banyak yang ngejar aku, tapi bersamaan dengan itu barangku makin banyak yang ilang.. Nah lo pilih yang mana

Liat video unyu dan menyentuh tentang cowok yang hidupnya berkecukupan sama cewek kecil yang orang ga punya. Di akhir, si cowok ngeganti botol air keruh si cewek kecil sama botol air minumnya yang jernih, terus dia gendong2in si cewek kecil itu.
Oh itu mukanyaa manis banget tauu. Mirip Baekhyunnya EXO gitu deh... ya... emang orang korea kali wkw

Terus aku mulai ngejar EXO showtime (ngomong ngejar padahal akhirnya yang dikejar malah episode gintama yang lama) , aku masih kesulitan bedain beberapa member EXO tapi gw bakal berusaha
//dicibirin TOXIC yahsorrygwfanskarbitanmasalah
Di saat Kris dan Tao sudah keluar, disini aku berharap mereka bersatu lagi. Yaah kuharap aku ga sendiri.. wkw

Dan... tirai perjuangan UTS dibuka! (meski ngomong gitu, tapi disinilah aku, nunggu downloadan Gintama sambil numpahin semua isi hati).